It has been a while since my last update on my blog. So much to process I guess. Since I’ve been hibernating for months, when I get a little window of energy or a state of being in less pain I want to spend that time in the presence of people so blogging, which doesn’t come easy for me to begin with, isn’t my first priority. So a month and a half ago I finished the last chemo treatment. Post chemo I am dealing with painful joints throughout my body and learning to deal with the fatigue that will plague me for a while. I am VERY thankful to be done with chemo but it was a tearful goodbye to the staff at the Allan Blair Cancer Centre; I appreciated them so much. Back in December I had a CT scan done halfway through my treatments that showed all the cancer growths were gone so I was anticipating the same outcome from my CT scan done at the completion of my chemo. It is spring now and you know how it feels to have shed those bulky jackets? It is a kind of liberating freedom to walk outside with no jacket or at least a thin jacket on. The grass is turning green here and there are buds on the trees. That smell that accompanies the first spring rain signals that it is time to welcome the new season; a fresh start! Well, that was my mindset in going through the motions of the post chemo CT scan. I was ready to welcome a new season; a fresh start. My doctor explained that the recent CT scan confirmed that all the original cancer growths were indeed gone, YAY, but it also showed a new site in my hip area that looks like a cancerous lesion on my bone...it started to snow on my “spring” day. I don’t know what the next step will be but I do know the Lord is in control. I am thankful and have been given this peace that surpasses all understanding (Phil 4:7) and I know, without a doubt, it is from the Lord. Really, this life on earth is not permanent and it is times like this that I’m reminded of that. This “snowy” day has reminded me that life this side of heaven isn’t the goal or final destination for any of us. As I read in Galatians 1:3-5 this morning, “Grace to you and peace from God our Father, and the Lord Jesus Christ, who gave Himself for our sins, that He might deliver us out of this present evil age, according to the will of our God and Father, to whom be the glory forevermore. Amen.”, I thanked God that I have been given the gift of faith to know and believe that I’ve been delivered out of this present age. I have this and all the truths in His word so I do not lose heart. Though my outer self is wasting away, my inner self is being renewed by these truths day by day. (2 Cor 4:16) I must seek the things that are above, where Christ is, seated at the right hand of God and set my mind on things that are above, not on things that are on earth. (Col 3:1-2) By His grace and mercy, with a thankful heart, I’ll be able to do just that as this season of life continues. I pray that I will lay aside every weight, and sin which clings so closely, and run with endurance the race that is set before me, looking to Jesus, the founder and perfecter of my faith, because of Him I have a true joy that is set before me.(Heb 12:1-2) Thank you for your prayers.
Sunday, April 10, 2016
All signs of spring are present and then….it snows.
It has been a while since my last update on my blog. So much to process I guess. Since I’ve been hibernating for months, when I get a little window of energy or a state of being in less pain I want to spend that time in the presence of people so blogging, which doesn’t come easy for me to begin with, isn’t my first priority. So a month and a half ago I finished the last chemo treatment. Post chemo I am dealing with painful joints throughout my body and learning to deal with the fatigue that will plague me for a while. I am VERY thankful to be done with chemo but it was a tearful goodbye to the staff at the Allan Blair Cancer Centre; I appreciated them so much. Back in December I had a CT scan done halfway through my treatments that showed all the cancer growths were gone so I was anticipating the same outcome from my CT scan done at the completion of my chemo. It is spring now and you know how it feels to have shed those bulky jackets? It is a kind of liberating freedom to walk outside with no jacket or at least a thin jacket on. The grass is turning green here and there are buds on the trees. That smell that accompanies the first spring rain signals that it is time to welcome the new season; a fresh start! Well, that was my mindset in going through the motions of the post chemo CT scan. I was ready to welcome a new season; a fresh start. My doctor explained that the recent CT scan confirmed that all the original cancer growths were indeed gone, YAY, but it also showed a new site in my hip area that looks like a cancerous lesion on my bone...it started to snow on my “spring” day. I don’t know what the next step will be but I do know the Lord is in control. I am thankful and have been given this peace that surpasses all understanding (Phil 4:7) and I know, without a doubt, it is from the Lord. Really, this life on earth is not permanent and it is times like this that I’m reminded of that. This “snowy” day has reminded me that life this side of heaven isn’t the goal or final destination for any of us. As I read in Galatians 1:3-5 this morning, “Grace to you and peace from God our Father, and the Lord Jesus Christ, who gave Himself for our sins, that He might deliver us out of this present evil age, according to the will of our God and Father, to whom be the glory forevermore. Amen.”, I thanked God that I have been given the gift of faith to know and believe that I’ve been delivered out of this present age. I have this and all the truths in His word so I do not lose heart. Though my outer self is wasting away, my inner self is being renewed by these truths day by day. (2 Cor 4:16) I must seek the things that are above, where Christ is, seated at the right hand of God and set my mind on things that are above, not on things that are on earth. (Col 3:1-2) By His grace and mercy, with a thankful heart, I’ll be able to do just that as this season of life continues. I pray that I will lay aside every weight, and sin which clings so closely, and run with endurance the race that is set before me, looking to Jesus, the founder and perfecter of my faith, because of Him I have a true joy that is set before me.(Heb 12:1-2) Thank you for your prayers.
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